Why I create art

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Have you ever found yourself asking "why do I do this?"

From time to time I find myself in a reflective mood. I find myself wondering why do I really create art?

The obvious answer is that it calms me, takes me to a place where time stands still and anything is possible.

But as I sat here inking a new piece something randomly popped into my head.

I create art because it is my way of connecting with people.

For those who know me or have seen me interact with people this might not be quickly understood. From the outside looking in you see an outgoing friendly person. One who is not afraid to say what's on her mind. Ready to jump into any situation with vim and vigor.

But take me out of a familiar environment or away from familiar people and I'm quite the introvert. To the point that even people who know me might not really know who I am.

The level of social awkwardness is cringe worthy at times

Most people, although polite, won't hang in there until the nerves subside and I can find level ground again. The conversation turns one-sided which kicks the nerves in even more and next thing you know I've just spent the last ten minutes talking about monkeys or whatever random topic ends up on my tongue that day.

Although probably hilarious to watch, it does make it hard for me to make a meaningful connections.

I came to terms a long time ago that not everyone is going to like me. I have a very love me or can't stand me personality. I understand that and for whatever reason it has never bothered me. I enjoy who I am. Even the socially awkward, very often klutzy side. It's the side that's taught me to be kind to myself.

In comes art.

It's my bubble of solid ground. It has started more conversations than I would have on my own and with a variety of people I might not have ever thought to talk to.

It's the vessel that allows a glimpse of who I am and has put me in more places than I ever would have gone otherwise.

It has led me on those glorious strokes of Kismet.

Those ones that have lead me right into the path of some pretty awesome people. In return they share a small piece of who they are and are forever sown into the essence of my art.

As I grow as a person this reason continually changes but the common thread as I think back about my journey is always that desire to connect.

Jackie ❤️

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