I was in bed. Not sleeping. Just in bed the way you are when the world has asked too much of you in too short a time and your body decides that horizontal is the only reasonable response. I had found an airbnb in Aubervilliers, northern Paris, far enough from the centre that it felt like a different city. Concrete and quiet and nobody knew me there. I had the curtains drawn. He messaged and told me to meet him on the street. I came out the gate and there he was, standing in t